Home
Home is north,
where sun arcs south.
Home is land
carved by glaciers.
Home is winter
with below-zero wind chill.
Home is blue
between snow and lightning.
Home is green
when fronts rip funnels.
Home is memory
wherever I will be.
Home is me.
Horseshit and Bossies
a glacial river
steeps words
between generations
time bleeds
as we breathe
tilled earth
alfalfa
thick milk
hay
see how great grandpa bridles horses
hear grandpa cuss horse shit
smell grandma's classrooms
reach down to rub grease
on the ford's floorboards
as grandpa warns
don't lock doors
taste the south pacific
in wartime letters penned
by a tomboy called carrot top
and a farmer's son schooled
six years in one room
the table is set
with great grandma's butter
and frozen words flow
before birth after senility
as jerseys follow grandpa's call
come boss
Land of Life and Death
for Reine Kowalk
- great grandpa's death on the land
- taken by his own hands
- neck of snapped breath on the land
- worked by his own hands
- on the land who remembers
- deer blood run
- by arrow and hide cut
- by sharp stone
- on the land who remembers
- blood let
by bodies spent
by age and birth
- the land who remembers
- hands cracked against a cheek
and a back stabbed
in angry heat
- on the land
- where blood and memory roll
- down hills to wetlands
- where blood and memory sew
- weeping willows
- where blood and memory fill
- long arms of leaves
- where wind carries the scent
- of life and death
Memories We Buried
for Morris Kowalk
Memories are buried
in graves at Hurd Cemetery.
The Kowalk name
chiseled on stone
fixed in clay
grounded by glaciers
until ice fled north
releasing the earth's mantle,
trailing snakes of
sediment and
gouging marshes
as edges of hills.
Pudding stones surface
where no map marked
a river to run,
before Northwest Territory was ordained,
before Michigan became the twenty-sixth state
or Clinton County had land plats.
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A row of plots are reserved
for my relations at Hurd,
DeWitt Township's cemetery.
A skeleton lies in a suit in a box
the height Grandpa stood
after cancer ate his manhood,
and Grandma's ashes lie
in an urn chosen by
her first born, a girl.
Headstones mark the marital pair
and a third yet to die,
the youngest and the only boy,
today declared
incompetent to stand
trial for arson,
after he baked clothes,
the aftermath of
The County's abandonment
of this twice ex-con
diagnosed schizophrenic
twenty-years long.
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Hurd's future lies
in zoning along its side,
three-hundred ten acres
to become World Headquarters
for Auto Owners
at an unknown time,
when final Kowalk plots
may hold remains
of my descendents.
But now glaciers break
into forty-mile floes,
stranding polar bears,
and someday the Great Lakes basin
may baptize cul de sacs
named after things killed
on this clay shaped by retreat,
on this land cut strip by strip,
on this mantle still rising.
Ancestor
What do I see in the clay?
Lilacs
heavy with May,
black walnut branches
as midwives,
plums
unloved by my mother as a child,
a field
where grandfathers led cows
and now deer feast on fallen apples,
sumacs
planted by sparrows
alders
circled by hawks.
The clay
is stuck with pine needles,
Arctic winds, songs of cicadas,
my uncle
unearthing stone instruments
shaped by agile hands,
virgins
felled by homesteaders,
the Anishinabeg
migrating,
the glaciers
retreating.
I see my ancestor.
Under Construction, A Prose Poem
for Lavern Kowalk
Highway US-27 rumbles and reminds me of detours to grade school. Through dusty windows, I witnessed a bridge raised between two hills ridden a century ago by German farmers. I studied an abandoned house, where Grandma bought goat's milk for her eldest unable to drink from heifers. After the bridge-to-be, the bus passed another hill occupied by widow Olga Roberts, whose view due east of West Clark Road spanned the Kowalk farm, where my mother and grandfather became adults and I grew into an adolescent.
I am in Lansing where US-27 and a fence sandwich crab-apple trees. Round flesh falls from limbs, reminding me of apples I picked last summer in the north field, where deer have gathered for nearly thirty years, where I dread one day to see L.D. Clark Construction Company carve lots and thrash blackberry bushes fed by a slim creek of the Looking Glass River, tributary of the Grand.
I detour Lansing's iced sidewalks and hear cicadas serenade sweet hay. Somewhere I know a brick-red wooden fence halts snow, howled by the north wind across gravel drives into New Year's, April Fool's, and sometimes Easter. I know that May bulbs rest to resurrect when the fence is returned to the barn full of square bales, when green days sprout tart weeds, when bees kiss wild violets and salty skin.
Beneath this US-27 overpass, I hear Old German sung from Emmanuel Methodist Church. The hymns bounce between imagined walls of the Kroger store intended to be built kitty-corner from the hill where Olga's house stood. In January, the month of Grandpa's death, I inhale the live marshmallow of milkweed pods and play the blade of grass between my thumbs. Fireflies dance on the dusk stage set for constellations circling the northern horizon from Prussia to my childhood on land unsheathed when mammoths died and the retreating Saginaw Lobe birthed the Great Lakes basin.
