Crossing the Threshold

…Yesterday I smelled winter on its away. I waited for a bus in the late-afternoon sun filtered by partially leafed, tree limbs. A fat brown squirrel cracked a nut nearby as the after-work traffic passed by. My silver tennis shoes rocked back-and-forth as I inhaled the cooling air and its promise of approaching snow. I smiled at the seasons, each so familiar that they are lodged in my marrow, imprinted on my soul. So familiar that confusion takes hold without white-outs during the dark time of year. You may take the girl out of the North, but not the North out of the girl…

Such are my reflections on this chilly morning, one of the last in October 2011, as we near Samhain and Día de los Muertos — distinct but kindred occasions that respect this time of year as crossing a threshold, an in-between time. Samhain is rooted in pagan Europe from Gaelic and Celtic traditions celebrating the harvest’s end and darker days, while the Day of the Dead hails from Mexico’s indigenous roots to honor departed loved ones.

I have in mind this spirit of crossing the threshold with coming events, including today’s poetry readings. My first reading is at 1:00pm at Fenner Nature Center (Lansing) with a focus on nature and community, in particular the impact of human use of the land. Snacks are served before the reading, and a suggested donation of $5 benefits Fenner.

This evening I give a free poetry reading at 6:00pm at Triple Goddess Bookstore (Okemos) in honor of ancestors and as part of the store’s weekend-long Halloween Party. Also I will share poetry as part of the ceremony at 7:00pm that follows the reading.

And Tuesday, November 1, is the first of my four workshops titled “Writing in the Dark” given at Coyote Wisdom Bookstore (Lansing). On this night, we are writing about ancestral roots and our bones — things on which our physical and creative flesh hangs. Our inspiration will be sparked by ancestors, those indigenous, enslaved, as well as immigrated to North America; St. Teresa of Avila, whose coveted bones became scattered holy relics; and La Loba, the wild woman who gathers and sings over wolf bones. Registration online or at the store is encouraged; walk-ins are welcome if space allows.

Wherever you may be today or in coming days, as the dark continues to lengthen here in the North, I wish you a bright spirit to keep your hope and imagination warm!

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Give Away

At the workshop “Writing as Healing,” participants taught me the importance of listening, often times a challenge for wordy-types like myself. The lesson especially was fitting for a program being given at The Listening Ear Crisis Center, which offers a 24-hour phone line to anyone needing to be heard: (517) 337-1717. A special thanks to volunteer staff for making us feel welcome and comfortable! Also thanks to the Women’s Center of Greater Lansing for taking registrations.

The materials we explored over the day shared this aim: Healing is a matter of telling the story about who we are becoming, not who we have been.  “Woundology and the Healing Fire” by Caroline Myss (People Who Don’t Heal and How They Can), “now let us shift . . . the path of conocimiento . . . inner works, public acts” by Gloria Anzaldúa (this bridge we call home), and poems from my collection Circle. . .Home pointed us in this direction. We need not go amnesiac, but rather build our present and future with recognition of where we have come from.

Without a doubt, perpetrators of intimate partner, sexual, and domestic violence are responsible for their actions. As survivors, though, we are left with the choice about how to live after trauma. And stepping back to consider life from the width of our experiences, there are certain habits and outlooks that foster resentment, ultimately piling grief upon grief instead of freeing us to live with peace and joy.  This focus led me to journal at the workshop about a very unexpected exchange last week about “airing dirty laundry” when we believe someone has “done us wrong.”

The surprising exchange made me ask myself: Why do we drudge up old wounds? What do we get from telling trauma stories? How does “dumping” our resentments impact others? In the asking, I recognized my own patterns and triggers, as well as the desire to be free from them. And an awareness surfaced from this process: Needing to be heard is not the same as needing to re-live the pain of certain memories and needing others to re-live them with you.

Here is the poem that resulted from my intention to embrace the power of love over the power of violence. “Give Away” is dedicated to the workshop participants. And thanks to the circle at The Writing Room for feedback on its earlier version.

Give Away

I am ready to give away
many things to the Earth
things that I have held
and held too long
grudges
indignation
certainty
that I am right

I am ready to give away
my sorrow and grief
that familiar pain
gouging my flesh
the pleasure from certainty
that I was wronged

I am ready to give away
the loss of dignity
the gain of humiliation
violations of body mind soul
the wound and scar

to the Earth
I am ready to give away
everything
that takes away
my hope
my joy
my peace
the choice to live
in love

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Playing with Shadows

My recent workshop “Writing as Healing” gave rise to a new piece, also inspired by recent events that reminded me about laying down the power of past pains.  It’s a poem-in-progress called “Give Away,” and I look forward to sharing it after feedback at The Writing Room tonight — 6:30 to 8:30pm at the Women’s Center of Greater Lansing.  Reminder: this writing circle is open to everyone and all genres.

And I look forward to partaking in more workshops in coming months! Check out my new series “Writing in the Dark” held at Coyote Wisdom Bookstore, 2432 N. Grand River Ave., Lansing, Michigan. The four sessions begin November 1, 2011, and run through January 2012, with discounted rates for multiple workshops. Click here for the flyer.

Meanwhile, the weekend promises a fun time with two readings for “Circle. . .Home” here in the Greater Lansing Area:

  • Fenner Nature Center, 1:00pm – 2:00pm;
  • and Triple Goddess Bookstore at 6:00pm with ceremony to follow at 7:00pm.

I’m excited to share the poetry collection with old friends and new faces. Thanks again for your support.

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New Open Mic!

Good news! Greater Lansing has a new open mic for written and spoken-word that starts tonight at Gone Wired Cafe, 2021 E. Grand River Ave., Lansing. Sign-up begins at 7:45pm with the open mic at 8:00pm. The event is free and open to the public. And, Wordsmiths, a writing circle is held from 6:30-7:30pm before the open mic.

The Writing Room began last year as a writing circle at the Women’s Center of Greater Lansing. It’s always been an open circle — for all writers and genres. We meet twice a month, the first hour with self-directed writing followed by an hour of exchange about our words.

The Writing Room Open Mic is new this season, and takes place on 2nd Mondays through 2011 — October 10, November 14, and December 12 — at Gone Wired Cafe. The Writing Room also meets 4th Mondays on October 24 and November 28, from 6:30-8:30pm at the Women’s Center of Greater Lansing, 1712 E. Grand River Ave., Lansing.

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Fall Fun!

Fall has arrived!  And in the North it brings a festive, crisp air with daily changes in the color scheme. In this season of candied apples and pumpkin hunting, I am excited to highlight my upcoming events and hope to see those from Greater Lansing at one of them.

Tonight, October 3, I join the radio program for Lansing Online News with Bonnie Bucqueroux and Bill Castanier. The show starts at 7:00pm (EST), and I’m slotted after 7:30pm.  Wherever you may be, you can stream the show live from 89.7fm WLNZ.

Thursday, October 13, is the Candlelight Vigil for Domestic Awareness Month at the Michigan Women’s Historical Center and Hall of Fame. I am honored to perform poems from my book “Circle. . .Home” as part of the program, which starts at 6:30pm.

Saturday, October 15, I will be at the 38th annual Apple Butter Festival at Fenner Nature Center from 11:00am to 5:00pm. Stop by my table to check out pictures from my family’s old farm in DeWitt and get a copy of “Circle. . .Home”!

Saturday, October 22, is “Writing as Healing”” a day-long workshop for adult women survivors of violence that I give at The Listening Ear Crisis Center in collaboration with the Women’s Center of Greater Lansing. See this web page for details and registration.

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Tipping the Balance

Photo by MDH

This week holds Autumn Equinox, when day and night are nearly equal in length, a threshold from summer to fall in the North, where leaves begin to burn with color and layer the ground. Night now will outpace day for a quarter of the year.

Some in the North will miss the light, wishing for warmer brighter days. The word, though, from Clarissa Pinkola Estés in Women Who Run with the Wolves describes a time of deep reflection, a space to tip the balance, a chance to sharpen senses keen in the dark.

These thoughts came to mind with the morning’s red-sky dawn, and I recalled my poem “Brigit’s Fire.” I began the piece one fall around the anniversary of my friend Sam’s death. The poem arcs from autumn to the promise of spring, from the dying season unto the lengthening of days.

In celebration of the season, I look forward to reading from “Circle. . . Home” this Saturday, September 24, at 6:00pm at the Triple Goddess Bookstore of Okemos (see map here). My reading is a part of the store’s Autumn Equinox Festival. This event is my last until October, so come out and make merry!

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Capital Gains Media Profile

Thanks, Lansing Capital Gains, for profiling me in your series “Choosing Lansing!” The article was published September 14. I greatly appreciate the skill of photographer David Trumpie and witty word of author Patrick Diehl demonstrated by the piece.

And a brief reminder about my next event: Tomorrow, Saturday, September 17, I’m at the Lansing City Market at noon. Hope to see you there and enjoying the local fare offered by vendors! I will have copies of “Circle. . .Home” on hand for purchase.

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Fall 2011 Readings & Workshops

After yesterday’s release of “Circle. . .Home,” I look forward to bringing the book to Greater Lansing through readings, workshops, and feature performances. My next event is this Saturday, September 17, at noon at the Lansing City Market.

Below is an up-to-date flyer about these events. Be sure to check my on-line calendar for forthcoming listings. Also, if you would like to invite me to an event or discuss my participation, please contact me at melissahasbrook[at]gmail.com or (517) 897-5833.

Updated September 26, 2011.

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Lasing State Journal Review

Many thanks to Ray Walsh for his review of “Circle. . .Home” in the Lansing State Journal: “Collection of poetry, prose is rooted in mid-Michigan area.” The online version dates September 10, while the print edition runs today September 11.

Glimpses of my newest poems from “Circle. . .Home” are available online: “balance” via Patrick Diehl’s blog “What’s the Diehl?” and an early version of “Origins” on Lansing Online News. The latter poem was finally titled “Origins, A Geologically Mistaken but Inspiring Account” after an enlightening visit with geologist Randall Schaetzl.

An inside bit about the development of “Circle. . .Home”: Dr. Schaetzl’s online course materials for Geography of Michigan and the Great Lakes Region were a starting point in my lay-person research about glacial landforms of mid-Michigan and the surrounding area. In fact, some sections there inspired found poetry, poems that are shaped from outside text. Found poems are an integral part of “Circle. . .Home”‘s last section “The Mason Esker”, titled after an ancient riverbed that stretches from DeWitt to Mason.

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Celebration for “Circle. . .Home”!

“Circle. . .Home” is being released tomorrow, September 10, at Everybody Reads Bookstore of Lansing! I start the celebration with a reading at 1:00pm followed by book signing and a savory reception. Beverages are from Gone Wired Cafe, and Mediterranean fare (veggie and vegan) is by Jamal Co. Catering.

As part of the reading, I look forward to introducing femestiza, my new business. “Circle. . .Home” is its debut publication, stage one of several to build the small press. Eventually, femestiza will publish other authors with stories from the heart.

I am excited to acknowledge several guests who are supporting the event and/or from agencies partnering with this book project. Advance thanks to Roxanne Frith for photographing the celebration. Also joining us at some point in the day are Kate Katje, Business Manager at the Arts Council of Greater Lansing, and Laurie Hollinger, intern from the Center for Poetry.

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